Walmart!

I headed back to work at the college today. It's funny how life works sometimes. I am almost hired at Walmart – I guess I cannot say that yet – I had an interview, it went well, the girl said I should probably hear back from they either Friday or Saturday for another interview (this time with the store manager where you discuss wage and position) ideally by then as well, as there is a orientation this Sunday. However, I have yet to hear, but I was trying to keep my life open. Yesterday I get a phone call from CNC. Can you work two days around the weekend? Sure, I will do Thursday Friday, to that technically, I can start at Walmart Monday. A couple hours later, my phone rings again. Can you do two weeks starting Monday? Sure. I work on a first come first serve basis. So, I go to work today. Within half an hour it has come out that I am desperate for work, and am willing to do just about anything. The manager of the area I am in today says “Oh, I am glad I know that... I have lots of things I would like to get you to do” and starts talking about training for another section, and hands me a list of other dates she would like me to work that she already knows about. I promptly agree. There is still that $25/hour or full time debate going on in my head. So, right now, I have 2 weeks at CNC, two weeks off, 1 week part time at CNC followed by 1 week full time at CNC, and then some random evenings the following week. In an ideal world, Walmart will work around this. In an ideal world, I just work 2 jobs when I am at CNC as well. I figure the days that are already booked are good to go, but future dates might be a problem.

As I mentioned, I am having debates with myself: to work full time, or to make more money. Money isn't really an issue for me, but it is obviously nicer! The bank account grows when I make more money, but it doesn't if I only work one week a month. Full time work would probably be preferred by me, as I prefer to keep busy. I almost hate to say it, but I think Walmart would win out on this one. Then there is the fact that I THINK that Walmart has benefits. Those would sure be nice too! As a Casual, I do not get some luxuries. The next debate is which would I be happier at, Walmart or CNC? Walmart I still feel to be “beneath” me, but these days life at CNC is not really doing it for me. I would be busier at Walmart (I would hope) than I seem to be this year so far at CNC. I hate sitting idyl at work – especially when there is absolutely nothing to do! Of course, I also have a mentality within me that if you are paying me decent wages, I am willing to do more than if you pay me crap wages. Walmart promises not to pay minimum wage (but I will not know that until I (if I) get another interview. The girl that interviewed me did say that wage is based on experience, and I have at least 3 years of cash experience, so I can hope that pushes me up a little further! Of course, right now, all of these debates are “what if” scenarios, as I have not heard back from Walmart yet. However, I think that Walmart is winning out over casual work! However, if the college can book things in advance like this department has been doing, then I can work around that. Unfortunately, CNC is notorious for last minute planning.

On a totally different note, I am finding truth in my self help Bible again this summer. It suggests that if you are happy, you will find happy people and other things such as whatever you feel is what comes back to you. I feel like I have found more good friends in the last couple of months: friends that might even be real friends! I feel like there are more people willing to listen to me, as long as I can accept short amounts of time with them. And those that do listen feel closer than I am used to people feeling. I really super duper miss Justin, but we will find a way to have a long distance friendship as the distance barrier settles a little. Justin and I just talked so often that I am not even sure I realized how much he was in my life until he left it. I knew I was going to miss him, but I talk about him all the time now. Anyways, I can see the value of friendships in my life right now, and I really appreciate everyone who is a part of it. So, thanks for taking the time to care about me! And, I have a more positive attitude about life right now – you did just watch me choose Walmart over CNC didn't you? And my life finally seems to be falling into place. I am going to talk to someone at CNC who knows all about ESL programs, and she is going to help me choose the one best for me (no, I didn't set up the appointment today). I am anxiously awaiting Andrea's return to the Internet so that we can maybe discuss Europe a bit. Yes, Life is going alright!

That's about all I gots today. Jobs, Friends, Life. I am so tired after working today – I didn't sleep well, both Travis and Marc visited my dreams last night, and 6 am is early after a month off! I worked for one department and got paid by another – I was so thankful for something to do!

Have I told you lately that I love you? Well, I do.