One Moment

I don't know if you remember me... My name is Jenna, I went to Ghana in the fall...

Of Course I remember you!

I am sorry to took me so long to call you

I didn't expect you to (although, she did insist at one point that I needed to call her when I got home)

Well, you made a big difference to the children. I wanted to show you my pictures from my time there

That is so exciting! I definitely want to see all of them!

I have two massive photo albums....

Great! I want to see them all!



I am back on that one word, the one moment in time, that changes everything. Last week, I complained that in one scene on the TV, I remembered Travis and I all missed about him and I. Tonight, it was one short conversation that I had. I was feeling lonely and depressed. It's that time of month, what can I say. I know it, I do my best to just deal with it. Then I decided to make this call; it has been on my actual to-do list for over a week, mentally on my to-do list since March. Now, I can't help but smile. I laugh to myself. I guess it is because I now feel important again: important and remembered. Remembered because of ME, not because of the amount of money she gave to my cause. I still have no plans for tonight, and still wish I did (however, do not know who I would want to call to try to have plans... so yes, I know that I am not doing what I need to do). I think I might have a nice evening, with a movie or something at home.

Besides from my happy moment, things have gone well since my last blog entry. My sleep pattern is completely messed up. I can no longer sleep until about 1 AM, at which point I have fitful dreams and my regular 5 AM nightmares of death and destruction. I force myself up by 9:30 in an attempt to maintain some normalcy in life. However, with nothing to do but sunbath the day away, I find myself still unmotivated. Today, I didn't get in the shower until 12:30. But, I had the lawn mowed by 2 PM, so I must have been doing something. By 3 PM I was sunbathing. By 4:30 I was bored. And to think my day didn't really start until 1 pm!!!

I am still applying for jobs. I think I might do a resume run on Monday on the bus. There are a couple of places that want in person resumes (what a pain in the butt in today's society!) It will be the first resumes I have delivered in person since 2006. Ouch. Walmart and Canadian Tire don't really seem to have an option to apply online for basic jobs, only for the actual “careers” and Costco only accepts in person applications. Of course, I do not know that any of them are hiring, but I do think they should hire me for now! There was a real job that I applied for at UNBC. I remain hesitant about real jobs as well, as I still plan to be traveling or doing something I dream of and not staying in PG forever.

I have asked some people at CNC what they know about teaching English overseas. Everyone has a different answer. Some say it depends on the country in which I want to teach – well that doesn't leave much room for the “where the wind takes me” attitude I have developed and enjoy the sound of so much. I really do see this as an adventure, where I get to see different parts of the world. Contracts seem to be one year in length, right now I think that I would want to do my couple of years in different locations. Who knows, maybe I will make that my career! All I know about my career is that I do not want to be somewhere as materialistic as the “Western World”. I want to be somewhere where the small things are appreciated for what they are: small miracles that happen everyday. Some answer that TESOL is best. Some say that TESL is the only way to go. Just to throw me off, one says CELTA (Certified English Language Teaching to Adults). I however am pretty sure I want to teach to young children. Young children have always been my passion. When I was going to be an elementary school teacher here in town, I wanted to teach grade 2 or 3. I think that is probably still about what I want. CELTA has an extension program (not to be taken immediately after CELTA for some reason, but requiring CELTA nonetheless) that caters to teaching to “Young Learners” which would interest me as well. Both are 10 week courses. This being the first I have heard of CELTA I am a little leery. With CELTA you also get your TESL, but I thought my research had told me that TESOL was better than TESL? YIKES. Too much for me! So, I am just laying low on the decisions, doing a little research, and applying for lame jobs, but bored out of my tree, so happy to be doing it.

That's about it for me. Sunbathing. Applying for a job. Doing research. Went to the lake yesterday with Big Brothers, hopefully going tomorrow as well. I am thinking that I might change my plans about no travel this summer. I do need a new bra. Maybe do a Greyhound tour of BC... go see some friends in Kamloops, Merritt, buy a bra in Kelowna.. maybe a week or two? I don't know. I guess we will see. I am house sitting all of August, so it out of the picture for then. I guess it depends on the job situation hey!