Reminders

Every time I forget for a moment, there it is, reminding me. It was supposed to go away. It was supposed to get better. Instead, I have had over 2 weeks of problems. Last Wednesday on the way to the Yukon I discovered that I didn't have the proper supplies AT ALL. Today, I thought it was gone. Boy was I wrong. I get frustrated by the day. It seems that the surgery did more harm than good right now! But... maybe this is supposed to happen. It wasn't what I was told to expect, but maybe, for me, it is right. * sigh *

So, off to bed for another night. Feeling like I am near tears, because I have no control over my bodily functions and as I have for the last five years, I hate it! I find it very upsetting. Every time I see it, I want to cry. Every time I see it I remember everything.

Please, just make me better! That's all I ask for! A body that I know what is going on in!