Ummm... Me.

Hello my blog following friends! Hard to believe I have not updated you on my life in over a week! Well, luckily for you, I have time to catch up tonight! :P

I ended up working most of last week – it seems that with all the smoke and ash in the air, people were having troubles breathing and what not. Good news for Jenna, maybe not such good news for them. And because they called me in at 8 am, I sauntered in with Tim Hortons whenever I got to town. They knew I would need at least an hour seeing as I was living half an hour out of town at the time! It was a busy week – unfortunately one of our people was taken to emergency from work one day, so I spent 2 days rearranging all of his appointments.

Mom and I went to Bryan Adams. I think it was the best show I have ever seen him put on, and I have been to at least three of his shows here in town. He rocked the CN Centre and the concert had “limited seating available.” It's nice to see an old timer fill the 'plex like that! And he played all of his favorites, all of our favorites, and played for a good 2 hours. We got a double encore out of him! However, getting into the house around midnight was a hard idea for me to accept! Thursday morning sure came early!

On Thursday evening I learned that the people I was house-sitting for were coming home Friday night and not Saturday afternoon like they had thought they would. So Friday after work, I cleaned the house of the ash which had flooded it and moved on home! I was so excited for my own bed that I didn't sleep well in it!

Reba McEntire is coming to town! I am excited about that! I saw Reba at Merritt one year, and I thought she danced like a robot but I am still excited that she is coming to town! Jordan and I will be going to see her. :) Should be a good time!

Maybe this is why I skipped the blog for a week – this is really mundane stuff!

I have decided that I will attend Global Village in January. They emailed me today and told me that next years schedule should be out next week, and that unofficially there was a course running in January and February. Erin says I can live with her for the time I am there. That will be nice! At least I won't have to worry about accommodation as well! I brought home the application forms today, but obviously I cannot do it until they have set the dates for the program. I wanted to take it at Kwantlen, but Kwantlen apparently no longer offers the program even though it is on every website telling you where the course is offered.

I got hired at Walmart yesterday. I will be a cashier at some point down the road. They had an orientation today, which I had to miss because I actually have work this week. They told me the next one should be in a couple of weeks, and until I go to an orientation I cannot start work. I told them that was just fine with me, as I am working until September 3 as a casual at the college. This might have to change my Ghana plans. Maybe I take my program in January and go to Ghana afterward? I want to ask Walmart when I go in next if it is possible to take 2-3 months off and come back afterward. I don't want to quit when I go to school, I am still going to need a job when I return! And OBVIOUSLY I find that a difficult thing to do! I know they won't be happy if I take December off though, so that is why I am thinking about rearranging my plans for Ghana. I don't want to post pone it, I want to go NOW! But, I understand that it might be necessary for my future. I can't believe it took Walmart over a month to offer me a position anyways! And it is only part time to start! I am sure they told me it would be full time! But apparently you need to apply as a part time person for any full time positions which come up within the store! Definitely things I never knew about Walmart before yesterday!

I am still fighting exhaustion. I called my doctor today, but they only work half days on Tuesday and I didn't know that. I will call again tomorrow. I really need something to change in this! I am so tired I can barely function, and I am sleeping well at night! I am still having dreams, but they have changed drastically. Volunteers from Ghana are often in them, but it is never our children these days. Sometimes I can't hear their voices; I can't see their smiles. It makes me feel incredibly lonely when it is like I forget them all! I just want to go back and hold them all! I want to make everything better for them! But at this point, I can barely walk home from work without needing a nap. I am once again not swimming today, because I don't have the energy to walk to the pool let alone to jump in and swim at least 20 laps! I know, that is probably the wrong answer, but I am sure I don't have the energy to do it. I spent most the day telling myself I would go, but all I want is a nap. I fear that I am fighting a cold or sickness. I feel that run down for no reason.

For some reason this week, I cannot get Travis off of my mind. I walk to work and conversations that made my heart smile flow through my mind. I think of Nathaniel and then think of all the times the three of us were together. I hear a song, and I think about Travis. I am not sure what the deal is with that. I just hope he is okay. I am trying to refrain from texting him about it, as I am sure that is not my role. I don't want to cause problems for him and his girlfriend! I am just not sure why he is in my mind so much right now. A part of me wants to believe it is because I know something is wrong, this part encourages me to talk to him; to make sure he is okay; to offer to help if I can. Most of me tells me I am being silly. This part convinces me not to ask him. He texted me today, so I did tell him that I was worried about him and here if he needed someone to talk to. He said he didn't. At least now I can tell myself that I tried. I just... I like being a fixer, and I want to help!!!

anyways, I think my tired brain is too scattered to really write. I thought I had so many witty things to say and so much to talk about, but all I have done is babble randomly!

I love you! I hope you know that.