Do you?

When you walk the routes we once took
Do you think about me or just the girl your with?
When you visit places we once went
Do you remember me at all?

When you see me on the street,
What is your reaction like?
Do you remember the good times?
Or only the bad?

Does the sight of me make you angry?
Does it make you sad?
Does it make you want to run away?
Or do you just pretend you do not know me?

Do you ever wonder how I am?
Or what I am doing now?
Do you ever think of me?
And wish me well?

What are you doing here?
Why do I keep running into you this way?
I haven’t seen you in years
Now it’s becoming often.

Every time I see you
My heart stops in my chest
A lump fills my throat
My hands turn to ice
I find it hard to breath

Why do I react to you this way?
Is it because you are happy and I am not?
Is it because you said you were through?
Is it because you were the closest to Real
That I have ever found?
Or is it because you are gone?

I do not miss you
Although I remember what we had
And I know, I let go of the best
The best I ever had
We couldn’t have worked
I have new dreams and goals
I am leaving and no one will hold me down

Is it just you I react this way to?
Would it be the same if you were someone else?
Can anyone have the same effect on me
That you are having now?

I know we had a good time
I know it was real
But I am thankful we ended
So that I could follow these dreams
These dreams I never knew I had.

We no longer know each other
But I could have sworn
I felt you glare at me today
When I passed you on the street
You couldn’t have known it was me
It probably wasn’t even a glare
But it cut to my soul

I felt a sudden urge to talk to you
To tell you about me
To learn about you
To meet your future wife
And wish you both well

Instead I kept on driving
With tears threatening to fall
Wondering why you had this effect on me
And if you even cared.