I worked for 14 days, and now, I am a bum again. I finished my homework, finally! I think I am good with how it has turned out, but I will probably go over it all again in the near future. My shiny new laptop has arrived, and I was able to do all the set up on my own. Alan did have to help me try to figure out how to get connected to a home network, but it works now. He also told me how to get the password for our wireless which we assumed dead for years now. That is very exciting for us, as now we can do basic research and watch TV at the same time! I am finally working on my thank you cards, but I am not really into it at all. I write one and take a long break before forcing myself to start another. I have pulled out the pictures the children did for the notes and I am trying to sort through them. I have close to 60 pictures I think, and only about 10 cards to send, so I guess I will have to not give them all out.
Since becoming unemployed again, I have found my social life! It’s okay to stay up a little later when I can sleep in a little in the morning! I have decided that my normal sleep pattern involves over sleeping, and that is why I am so tired. I actually do not wake up in time for the right amount of sleep! Of the three days I have been a bum, I have let myself sleep for 2 of them. I wake up feeling groggy and cranky, and feel like I need a nap early in the afternoon. Today, I got up at 8, and do not feel the need for a nap and feel a little more energetic than I have felt the other days. I am trying to get only 8 hours of sleep, because I know that in 2 weeks, I will be getting less than that and needing to function! The problem with not sleeping my morning away is that I am bored during the day!
I have seen my friends every day this week, and it has felt so nice! There has been negatives that happened, but I still am glad we found the time and everything to hang out. My Kimmer is home again, and I can’t wait to hang out with her! She has been home for a week, and we have only texted! We have a tentative Sunday date all set up! Tomorrow, Mom and I are going to the mountain, and then Sam and Fran are coming over to do a bit of a makeover. It’s Fran’s 20th birthday on Wednesday, and they are skanking it up. I told them I couldn’t skank it up with them (darn bras!), so we are going to go through my wardrobe and see what we can do. Then, on Wednesday, I have to be at their house early so that we can finish my makeover, complete with makeup and a hair do! Fran says she can do amazing things to my hair, so I am trusting her!
My little brother is putting on a dinner theatre next week with his class. I am busy the night of the performance, but I am able to attend the dress rehearsal. I am pretty excited. I saw a bit of it yesterday, and it looked fabulous! The Grade 5 class has done everything for this play, including writing it. Nick looks so happy in it! He really seems to be blooming this year! <3
I am scheduled for a CT Scan for Tuesday afternoon. My doctor says that the results can take up to two weeks to get to the doctor’s office, but I have an appointment booked for Feb 7th to see the results and see what the next step is. I have been trying to walk more, but after about an hour, my ankle feels really tired and weak. Mom thinks it might need surgery to remove a bone chip. But, we will just have to wait and see! Snowboarding in a foot of heavy powder is definitely hard on it!
My course starts in two weeks. Soon it will be time to repack my suitcase and hit the road. We are stopping in Kelowna for a couple hours to see if we can buy me a fitting bra, and then off to Vancouver. I am about in the same place as I always have been: excited and scared shitless all at the same time! The pre-course package, although it stressed me out, has also unstressed me a little. I know sounds strange right! Well, each unit stressed me out in a new way as it was all new to me, and I didn’t know what was going on. Now that I have finished it, I realized how much I have learned in the last 2 weeks of working through it, and how much more I have to go. And because I accomplished the book, I know I can accomplish the course! Go me! It is still so strange to me that I have a dream about to come true! Then I can make other dreams come true, and live my life the way I want to!
I had a call from my best friend from college the other night. It has been replaying through my head since. He said he missed me, he needed me, and that I needed to come visit (since I am not going to be in PG when he wanted to come here). I have talked to people about this, because, I don’t want to be like one of the girls who wrecked my life, even if they didn’t plan to do it. Obviously, I need his wife to be okay with me coming to visit. I had no idea how to go about any of this. But, I texted Justin again today, to make sure he was serious, and plan to explain to him how I feel about his wife needing to know. All I can think about is how Travis essentially asked for my permission to cheat on me when he asked if one of his girl friends (not girlfriend please!) could stay at his house. I can remember all of my feelings and reactions. My first answer was not a chance in hell! Then I decided that wasn’t fair of me, I need to trust him. Then I realized that it didn’t matter what I said, it would happen anyways. I do not want his wife to go through this. I have no plans of stealing her husband away, and I have no reason to believe that it is his plan either. He tells me that his wife and I are the best things that have ever happened to her. And of course, if I had not had the experiences I have had, I might not feel so strongly about needing her permission to come and visit. It has taken me a long time to get to this decision, but here I am. I want to go visit them; I want to meet his wife and his baby. I want us to be friends. I do not want to cause problems however. I think this requires me to talk to his wife, and make sure that she is okay with it. I cannot be a home-wrecker! But, I feel confident about the course of action I have chosen.
So with a week of fun ahead of me, I am ready for whatever comes my way.
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